What can one person do?

I recently encountered one of the biggest disappointments of my life. This happened after twice taking part in an application process, where you truly need to believe in your own capabilities, find the connection between your strengths and the required contribution and have great love towards the community around you. Your why, how and what need to be made crystal-clear not only for yourself, but also communicated to the others. Once those have been discovered, only thing you can do is to give your best and have confidence in being able to take it to the very end. And then you have to trust in the knowledge and understanding of the decision-makers.

  

During the two and a half years working in an organisation that I deeply love, this hasn’t anyway been the only disappointment. The problems in my own volunteering project led to resigning from the cooperation with the local community, and one year ago I was disappointed in myself of making a ridiculous mistake of choosing a wrong email address as a recipient. I do believe that all the faced disappointments have had their lessons, and so made me a stronger version of myself. But I cannot deny the fact, that they wouldn’t have made me feel small and incapable of making an impact.

In a world of over 7 billion inhabitants it’s not surprising to feel powerless. The harsh truth is that you won’t be understood by everyone you meet, and there might also be people who are not ready to question the things they have always seen to be right. However, you can on some level decide, whether these people will make you to surrender or to be a champion. And even in cases where you would lose on paper, you might still have created an impact.

Putting yourself out there for the opportunities requires a lot of courage and trust. Sometimes it asks for adapting an attitude of even if they would say you cannot, you just need to show them what you are made of. Sometimes, the results will show in a slight change in the ways of working, lighting up the spark in someone’s eyes, or planting a seed of a better future. And if you see the relevance of these little things, they’ll be your reasons why all the disappointments are worth encountering.

Ironically, for me the experience of getting rejected from the position, made me reflect on my capabilities on two ways. Firstly, it really made me feel just a small human being with limited affecting possibilities. Secondly, I have never felt so powerful after losing something. I think indeed, that it was a loss, but what it also meant, was a tank full of confidence boost. I realized, that I’m really capable of big things. And I don’t say it to make myself to feel happier or more satisfied with the loss, I say it because that’s how I decided to move forward from the disappointment. And because going through this was my way of not ending up regretting not to have tried it out fully.

In the end, not all the impact will be achieved by winning. When I’m next time asking myself, what can one person do, I have one more situation reminding me of the power of an individual. The power to be humble and fierce at the same time. And I believe, the source of that power is in daring to stand up, taking the opportunities and walking them through with confidence, by choosing a road towards the things you value.

P.S. Disappointments in life rarely come without opening new doors. Soon after these news I got an invitation to an interview, for which there is now space in my calendar. ;)